Friday, May 15, 2009

Depeche Mode 2009|Luxembourg

Marian & Shamus
And they lived happily ever after!

Mickey Mouse.

Nylon Stockings.

Richard Avedon
International Center of Photography
May 15 - September 6, 2009

Nothing like an Avedon exhibition. Last time I saw him, his unmistakeable hair and eye-glasses were head and shoulders above the crowd...I can't remember the museum, to my regret. I remember meeting Lang (how tacky he was!) and Gary (how shocked he was over Lang's tackiness).

Lang was more interested in cruising the museum for boys, than he was in Avedon being one room over.

I'll have to get back to you on this with the details. I know I have them.

Here's the info on the ICP show.

Richard Avedon + Dovima

I actually spoke to Dovima (Dorothy Virginia Margaret Juba) on the telephone towards the end of her life, when she was a waitress in a pizza joint in Hollywood FL. How the beautiful had fallen. Liver cancer. Sparing no one.

I was the First Assistant (actually, the only assistant!) for David Vance (Oct 1988 - Jan 1990) in Miami. My dream job, all stemming from a photograph of muscular guys in black speedos and a Doberman (named Kaiser) running in the South Beach surf, screaming out from a copy of THE BLACK BOOK. If I ever landed in Miami, I would work for that man, but I knew I'd never end up in Miami. All this, while standing in the very cold, sterile, and homophobic photo lab at SU.

I was to answer the phone and say "studio" and take a message, or relay a message.

It seems that Dovima was on a rebound from her bout with liver cancer, and, referred by VOGUE, she was calling to schedule a photograph with David, even though she was wearing scarves.

The photograph never materialized. Dovima died on May 3, 1990.

Have a fashionable birthday|Richard Avedon.

Richard Avedon, self-portrait
Provo, UT
20 Aug 1980

Out of order.

That same-day spinal procedure I had about ten days ago?
They fucked up. It wasn't DONE CORRECTLY.

And that doctor of mine doesn't believe in pain meds.

Anyone have a sledgehammer?

Back on line (what a sick pun) in a few.

Get well comments appreciated!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Hallowe'en 1979|Don't Ask. Don't Tell.

I'm NOT admitting to being in this photograph.
I am admitting that I am NOT the person on the right.

The Gap Ad|The Boyfriend Trouser
Or "why I have 47 pairs of Gap khakis"

WTF? There's an App for that!

Iraq + Afghanistan

Don't Ask. Don't Tell.
And don't break Anderson Cooper's bubble.

COOPER: Up next, President Obama says he wants to overturn "don't ask, don't tell," the law that requires gays and lesbians in the military to keep their sexuality secret. But it hasn't happened yet. Service members continue to be discharged. We'll find out why. We're going to talk to Lieutenant Dan Choi, a West Point graduate and Arab linguist, recently told he's being discharged under "don't ask, don't tell."

COOPER: Tonight new controversy over gays in the military, despite a promise to repeal the Clinton-era "don't ask, don't tell" policy. The White House today confirmed that President Obama will not intervene in current cases against men and women who admit they're gay.

To date more than 12,000 gays and lesbians have been booted from service, and the number is growing, even as the president says he believes "don't ask, don't tell" does not serve the national interest. In a moment I'll talk to an infantry platoon leader recently told he's being dismissed under the policy.

But first, Joe Johns reports on "A Nation Divided."


JOE JOHNS, CNN CORRESPONDENT (voice-over): It was a campaign promise.

BARACK OBAMA, PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES: We are going to overturn it now. How am I going to do it? JOHNS: To this day its critics are still asking, how is the president going to get rid of "don't ask, don't tell"?

(on camera) The law that requires gays and lesbians in the military to keep their sexual orientation a secret and their commanders not to inquire about it has been in place now for a decade and a half, discharging more than 12,000 military personnel, some since President Obama took office.

(voice-over) Opponents of the law want quick action.

AUBREY SARVIS, SERVICEMEMBERS' LEGAL DEFENSE NETWORK: We are urging him to move out with a sense of urgency. Every day service members are being discharged under "don't ask, don't tell" for one reason only, because of their sexual orientation.

JOHNS: The issue could hijack the White House agenda, because so many people like retired Army Lieutenant Colonel Robert Maginnis oppose gays and lesbians serving openly in the military.

COL. ROBERT MAGINNIS (RET.), U.S. ARMY: You have forced intimate situations where you say, "Look, you know, you're in a room with this person. And that's an order." Then, in fact, you can begin to have the residuals, the morale issue, the whole issue about retention and recruitment come up.

JOHNS: Still the administration says it's a work in progress.

ROBERT GIBBS, WHITE HOUSE PRESS SECRETARY: The president, with former members of the joint chiefs, and why the administration believe that the policy isn't working for our national interests. To get reform in this instance requires a legislative vehicle.

JOHNS: Mr. Obama has said "don't ask, don't tell" is a waste of taxpayer resources, because it requires the military to get rid of well-trained individuals.

OBAMA: Why would we spend money kicking out Arab-speaking linguists that we need right now?

JOHNS: It happened to this guy, trained as an Army interrogator.

ALEXANDER NICHOLSON, SERVICEMEMBERS UNITED: A colleague in my unit, intelligence unit happened to find out I was gay, didn't have a problem with it until a little bit later, decided to use it for spite, kicked me out. The Army lost a multi-lingual human intelligence worker, six months after 9/11.

JOHNS: It's clear the president hasn't backed down, even sending this handwritten letter to one discharged lesbian service member, promising to fulfill the campaign commitment. The question is how and when.

Joe Johns, CNN, Washington.

(END VIDEOTAPE) VELEZ-MITCHELL: Well, 1st Lieutenant Daniel Choi is an Iraq combat veteran, fluent in Arabic, founder of (ph), an advocacy organization for West Point graduates who are gay. He's also the most recent service member to fall under the military's "don't ask, don't tell" policy. Lieutenant Choi joins me now.

It's interesting when you hear then-candidate Obama saying, you know, why would we kick out an Arab linguist? You are an Arab linguist, fluent in Arabic, at a time when we need Arab linguists more than ever before. What do you think when you hear that the White House today, basically confirming that, while the president may oppose "don't ask, don't tell," he's not going to get involved in any individual cases and not really going to do anything about you or the others who are being discharged right now?

1ST LT. DANIEL CHOI, ARMY NATIONAL GUARD: It's really insulting to me. It's really a slap in the face. I've been insulted before, personally. But because it's saying that my unit was not professional enough to deal with the gay soldier that had capabilities, that's really...


CHOI: Right, in the New York Army National Guard. They said that they weren't professional, that they weren't, you know, maintaining good order and discipline, which is completely false. That was the argument that was given to me in the letter.

COOPER: Did you have soldiers saying anything to you? I mean, pro or con?

CHOI: After I came out, I thought nobody -- nobody actually knew, because for four days while we were doing rifle marksmanship and shooting live ammo down range, nobody said anything. So I thought, "Wow, nobody knows. I've got to tell them in a different way."

But afterwards when we all hung out, they said, "We know, and we don't care. It's really what kind of capabilities that you have to the team." And some of them actually went up and said, "Because you were honest with us, because you trusted us enough, that speaks volumes of the kind of confidence you have in the unit." In the end it made the unit stronger.

And so as a family, we're supporting each other. We know. We trust each other enough to tell the truth.

COOPER: I mean, you heard some veterans, some people in the piece, saying unit cohesion will suffer. You don't buy that?

CHOI: Unit cohesion gets stronger whenever you have trust. Unit cohesion is based off of trust.

COOPER: What if there are soldiers uncomfortable with somebody who's gay?

CHOI: I was uncomfortable the moment that I went into the military. There's a lot of things, bringing a lot of people together from all different facets of society. That's what makes the military strong, is the diversity that we have. It comes from all different communities in America.

When we go to war, we all need the support of each other, but we need the support of every community in America, as well.

People are also uncomfortable with a lot of things. I mean, I'm Asian-American. There's people of different races and genders. And it's about working together, when you have a mission.

COOPER: They also say it would hurt -- it would hurt people from signing up again to join the military, retention.

CHOI: Right.

COOPER: Do you buy that?

CHOI: Me, I might get kicked out, you know, within a month here. And I'll tell you my secret plan, you know. Once they repeal this law, I'll be the first one right in that recruiting station.

COOPER: You would join again?

CHOI: Oh, yes.


CHOI: Well, it comes back to the reason why somebody joins the Army. Whether they're gay or they're straight or they're black or they're white or a woman or a man, they want to serve. And they're selfless. They're patriotic. That's the reason why anybody joins.

COOPER: What is it like being gay in the military?

I mean, at West Point, you knew you were gay?

Did -- you didn't -- did you tell the people there?

CHOI: No. I was -- actually, I was very terrified that anybody was going to find out: looking behind my shoulder, careful and parsing a lot of the words that I said. I never had a relationship myself, like, while I was in the military. I lived under "don't ask, don't tell" for a decade. And...

COOPER: You didn't have any relationships while you

were in the military?

CHOI: No. And actually, only my last couple of months I started one, and I found out what love was and that I really couldn't stop talking about it. And I was asking some of the soldiers in my unit, what do you do when you have a girlfriend?

COOPER: They were giving you relationship advice?

CHOI: Right. And, you know, I couldn't come out to them. So it was, like, how can somebody lie about something that's so great or something about their identity? COOPER: What happens next? You're going to fight this.

CHOI: Right. Fight this tooth and nail. There's going to be a board of officers, and I'm going to explain to them, "I'm still gay. I'm here. I'm ready to serve."

COOPER: And if -- if they do, in fact, discharge you, what will you do?

CHOI: Well...

COOPER: You could leave now with an honorable discharge.

CHOI: That's right.

COOPER: But you could risk not getting an honorable discharge.

CHOI: Right. One of the choices is just shut up and go away, and we'll give you an honorable. It will be comfortable. And really, I will continue speaking out. I will continue reminding all the soldiers -- I mean, if there's anyone that's listening right now, a gay soldier, I just want to tell them that you are honorable. And you're not alone. There's so many of us that are serving. And it's an important time to be serving right now, in a time of war.

And I can't promise anything myself about legislation or when. I mean, I'm not a politician, but I will promise you that I will not shut up. And I will not be forced to be silent.

COOPER: Lieutenant Dan Choi, appreciate you being with us, and thank you for serving.

CHOI: Thank you.

COOPER: Should the White House AND CNN put an end to

"don't ask, don't tell"? What do you think? Let us know.

Go to to read Lieutenant Choi's open letter to

President Obama and join our live chat. Let us know what

you think.

Untitled. Waterbury CT


for a friend who needs a bouquet...

Untitled. Waterbury CT

Portrait of the Photographer
Shamus Ian Fatzinger

Shamus was in my very first photography class when I took to the lectern that Wednesday night in September 1992, at the International Fine Arts College|Miami, days after Hurricane Andrew ravaged South Miami.

They say a good teacher looks forward to the day when the student surpasses the instructor.

If that's the case, I couldn't be happier.

This is one great, jive-turkey,"Peek-a-Boo", hard-core, never-say-die, motherfuckin' photographer.

Thunder, indeed.

Richard Pryor v George Carlin

The Most Cunning Linguist's Birthday|1937
George Carlin

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Monday, May 11, 2009

Barnabus? Is that you?

Well hello, Dali! Happy Birthday, Dali!

photography © Halsmann

Size-queen's camera: Nikon Cool-Pix

Where's Ashton Kutcher when you want 'em?

I'd like to see the gay guys' version of this ad.
And I'm not talking pix pecs.

Anne Lennox|Live

A great mix of a live solo performance by the world's greatest female vocalist!
Check it out here.