Saturday, November 18, 2006

Big Rant|Don't wait for them to ask: JUST TELL!

Sgt. Leonard Matlovich's tombstone.

President Bush:
When you can look me in the eye and say it's more honorable to kill men than to love them,
and believe it.

Better still: have Laura do it.

Rant|Gibbs College, Part II

I wrote this great rant last night,
and, as cyberfate would have it, over-wrote it with the photograph
or some such thing.

Here's the short verion:

to the Anonymous poster:

1. yes, I was asked, repeatedly, drirectly and indirectly, to "pass" students
2. yes, I was asked directly to falsify attendance
3. yes, I was asked to "consent" to internships which were dubious, at best.
4, barring #3, the student would be removed from my roster and placed with a more lenient soul

38 VisComm students signed a petition stating their concerns with their lack of a quality education, and that's putting it mildly, and the "petition was so well-written, a Gibbs' student couldn't have written this: you did."

I heard lawyers showed up for a few days a few months later and nothing changed except for one pivotal seat which, God-willing, will make a difference.

There are a few professionals there struggling to make a difference.
Few, far-between, and scant few actually teaching.

And I'm not invited to graduation?
Most professional attendees do so because they are paid.
And they voice their opinion every single graduation.

I actually loved going.

So, you want names? you want dates?
Find me.

Haunting me. #6

Why hello, say can I buy you another glass of beer?
Well thanks a lot, that's kind of you,
It's nice to know you care
These days there's so much going on
No one seems to wanna know
I may be just an old soldier to some
But I know how it feels to grow old

Yea that's right
You can see me here most every night
You'll always see me staring
At the walls and at the lights
Funny I remember oh it's years ago I'd say
I'd stand at that bar
With my friends who've passed away
And drink three times the beer that I can drink today
Yes I know how it feels to grow old

I know what they're saying son
There goes old mad Joe again
Well, I maybe mad at that, I've seen enough
To make a man go out his brains
Well do they know what it's like
To have a graveyard as a friend
'Cos that's where they are boy, all of them
Don't seem likely I'll get friends like that again.

Well it's time I moved off,
But it's been great just listening to you
And I might even see yer next time I'm passing through
You're right there's so much going on
No-one seems to wanna know
So keep well, keep well old friend
And have another drink on me
Just ignore all the others, you've got your memories.

Birthday|19 November 2006

Haunting me. #5

Every day I write the list
Here I go again
Singin' by your window
Pickin' up the pieces of what's left to find

The world was meant for you and me
To figure out our destiny
(a thousand beautiful things)
To live
To die
To breathe
To sleep
To try to make your life complete
(yes yes)



Melt that glacier and pick just one.
It would mean something important to me.

Rant|Gibbs College

Graduation was Thursday night,
and there were probably a significant number of students
that I not only taught, but probably bent over backwards to help,
at my physical, emotional, and financial expense.

Now, frequent readers of this blog,
and those in the know,
know I resigned.

Because I wouldn't pass people who weren't passing.
Because I wouldn't forge attendance records.
Because I wouldn't falsify internships.

Seems inviting me to the graduation would have been akin
to letting an atomic bomb in the building.

I was going to go as Jack O'Lantern?

Oh. And they are offering medical billing now.

I once waited, without knowing, fourteen years
for the kharma kickback to right a very wrong.

It works.

Haunting me. #4

And I've got a longin'
That's hard to find
Won't give me no peace of mind
Something that I've lived with all along
Days and weeks and months and years
Filling in the time my dear
Tryin' to find the place where I belong

is the darkness in your heart
It's the sound of one hand clapping
While it's pulling you apart

Haunting me. #3.

You can fulfill
Your wildest ambitions
And I'm sure you will
Lose your inhibitions
So open yourself for me
Risk your health for me...

Haunting me. #2

A secret scream so loud
Why did you let that happen?

Are you ready to break
Do you think that I push you too far?
Would you open yourself?
Are you reckless some nights?

Haunting me.

And it has nothing to do with a chainsaw.
Or a hockey mask.
Take my life
Time has been twisting the knife
I don't recognise
People I care for

Please don't analyze
Please just be there for me

And the strangest thing
Is I cannot get my eyes open

Take my hand
Lead me to some peaceful land
That I cannot find
Inside my head

Horrorfest|Saturday's Screenings

Stihl. When you care enough for the very best.

Horrorfest|Friday's screenings

Good, and seriously gory.
Dumb, but good. Kinda creepy.

Friday, November 17, 2006

1,234th Post|Body Count

The real horror here is each of the nine families who have yet to experience the knock at the door.

And I'm going to see "8 films 2 die 4" over the next three days?

Two bodycounts:
8 movies.

Three days.

Lingering Thoughts #2|Horrorfest et al

Lingering Thoughts|#1

Scent + Sensibility

No matter how you slice it,
orange is still citris.

[Civil] Unrest

Horoscope for Horrorfest Weekend

Personal Daily Horoscope
Friday, 17 November 2006
born 4 May 1960
©Astrodienst AG

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Sun Trine Med.Coeli exact at 19:42
activity period from 17 November 2006 to 19 November 2006.

With this influence you have a clear idea of what you are doing and where you are headed. You feel that you know who you are and are therefore confident that you can achieve your objectives. But with this influence also comes a knowledge of and mastery over the necessary material resources and techniques for achieving your ends. You need more than mere self-confidence to achieve anything, as you are well aware. So you will work diligently at whatever task you set yourself today, paying great attention to detail and making thorough use of all the material that will help you accomplish your task. You feel pride in knowing that you have done good work as well as in knowing that you have moved one step closer to your goals. Therefore you will also gain the respect of others today.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Playlist Posting

I hate when they edit the posting to songs carried only in the USA.
And their random artwork could be more user-friendly.

Playlist|Goodbye Special K [unedited]

Playlist|Goodbye Special K [available on iTunes]

Evidence|St Sebastian's Wounds [Jason]

Finding True North|1º

My middle name starts with "M" for a reason...

I've been a martyr for love
And I will die in the flames
As I draw my last breath
As I'm closing on death
I will call out your name

I've been a martyr for love
Nailed up on the cross
While you're having your fun
As the damage is done
I'm assessing the cost

I knew what I was letting myself in for
I knew that I could never even the score

I've been a martyr for love
I need to be by your side
I have knelt at your feet
I have felt your deceit
Couldn't leave if I tried

I've been a martyr for love
Tortured every hour
From the day I was born
I've been moved like a pawn
By the greatest of powers

I knew that I would have to suffer in vain
Aware that I would never outgrow the pain

I've been a martyr for love
I've been a martyr for love
I've been a martyr for love

Horrorfest|Mallview 10

Here's the nearest thing to showtimes I could find.
The number provided will take you straight to the sales desk.
Even they don't know what's going on.
Looks like separate sales for each.
Not the "buy a pass, get the t-shirt" that's advertised on-line.

It's probably a shirt of the chick and the skeleton.
Two things I want in the orange.

Niche Marketing|Horrorfest

God, I'm jonesin' to see all eight in three days.
I must be straight.

Playlist|The Strangest Thing [George Michael]

©image remains with the photographer
*Note: I'll upload the EP later. It's worth it.

Take my life
Time has been twisting the knife
I don't recognise
People i care for

Take my dreams
Childish and weak at the seams
Please don't analyse
Please just be there for me

The things that i know
Nobody told me
The seeds that are sown
They still control me
There's a liar in my head
There's a thief upon my bed
And the strangest thing
Is i cannot get my eyes open

Take my hand
Lead me to some peaceful land
That i cannot find
Inside my head

Wake me with love
It's all i need
But in all this time
Still no one said...

If i had not asked
Would you have told me
If you call this love
Why don't you hold me

There's a liar in my head
There's a thief upon my bed
And the strangest thing
Is i cannot get my eyes open

Give me something i can hold
Give me something to believe in
I am frightened for my soul, please, please
Make love to me, send love through me
Heal me with your crime
The only one who ever knew me,
We've wasted so much time
So much time

Haunting me. Again.

The typo really makes this a good, and funny, first tagline which actually made it past my fingertips.

Everything else was lame.

Photographer|Daniel Staver

No wonder I'm a fuckin' mess...

Personal Daily Horoscope
Thursday, 16 November 2006
born 4 May 1960
©Astrodienst AG

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Mars Trine Ascendant exact at 00:09
14 November 2006 to 17 November 2006.

Enlarging your scope
In most areas of your life, you are able to act much more decisively than usual, especially in dealing with others. You know where you stand, and you ask others to let you know where they stand. And despite your self-assertiveness, you are able to create a balance in a group so that everyone benefits from working together and no one feels dissatisfied. Under this influence you will want to enlarge the scope of your activities somewhat. It will not be enough to express your energies as you have in the past. At this time you want to find new expressions, and you will look for people to share in this. For this reason you want to be with active people who have enough energy to go along with your plans. On the physical level, this is usually a period of good health.

Neptune Opposition Uranus

activity period from beginning of March 2005 until end of December 2006.
Out of your mind
Valid during many months: This influence represents an enormous revolution in your consciousness, as you are exposed to aspects of life that you never dreamed possible. These might include any of the following: the occult or metaphysics; astrology; magic; altered states of consciousness, perhaps through drugs or meditation; or groups whose ideas are extremely idealistic and radical.
What is actually happening is that tremendous new understandings are asserting themselves in your life with such force that they seem to upset all your past ways of thinking. However, this is only a problem of perspective. At this time you are in the middle of these changes and cannot see the relationship between your new consciousness and your old. But they are related, which you will come to understand as the immediate impact of this influence begins to pass.

This is a period of tremendous psychological insights and change, but not much stability. Therefore keep your situation fluid enough that you can make changes as necessary. Do not try to build permanent structures at this time, because you will have to change them again and again. It should be noted, however, that the primary effects of this influence occur at the psychological level.

Possibly you will respond to this influence with confusion, doubt and uncertainty. Let it be, and wait for the situation to settle down. Try to minimize the elements of your life that require you to make long-range commitments, because your changing consciousness will make it difficult to continue such a commitment. If old goals lose their meaning, that is what must be. Be patient, and new goals will enter your life that will better fit your new state of mind.

Others may think you have gone out of your mind because of what you do and see at this time, but do not be concerned. This revolution in ideas and consciousness is a fundamental part of your life, and it must be allowed to pursue its own course.

Pluto Square Med.Coeli

activity period from end of December 2005 until beginning of October 2007.
Out of proportion
Valid during many months: At this time you have to be careful not to let your actions stir up resistance from others. Try to avoid acting in ways that say that you are out to change people's lives and habits and that you will not compromise at all. Without even being aware of it, you may become obsessed by achieving certain objectives with an energy out of all proportion to the significance of your goal. This is what scares people and may make them work against you.
On the other hand you may experience this kind of energy from others. Persons or circumstances may attempt to change you against your will. To a certain extent this is a positive encounter, because it forces you to become very conscious of what you are doing so that you can defend yourself against the pressures for change. And indeed it is inevitable that you will change, but the changes can be for the good, if you don't waste all your energies trying to fight them.

Your domestic life is particularly likely to change in some regard. Any tensions in your marital and family life will surface at this time, and you will have to do something about them. Do not hope that they will go away, because they won't. But you do have the opportunity to create a whole new relationship out of your present one, if your are willing to face the challenge. Sometimes these pressures for change are manifested externally. You may suddenly need repairs on your house, or appliances may suddenly break down, and as a result the physical health of either you or your family may suffer. This is also a sign that changes are needed, so you should look very intensely for the cause of the difficulty. Perhaps you need to move. Sometimes this influence coincides with a change of residence, which enables you to see what to do more easily because your new surroundings reveal previously hidden problems. You need not expect catastrophe with this influence by any means, but do not shrink from the challenge of change. Only in this way can you keep your life vigorous and challenging.

Pluto Square Mars
activity period from beginning of February 2005 until end of November 2006.
A fierce spirit
Valid during many months: This influence can have considerable dangers if you do not handle it properly. Its great energies can be used for constructive effort, however, through which you can accomplish a great deal. The problem is that it arouses ego energies either in you directly or in another person who can affect you, which can be very difficult if the energies are frustrated.
If you are affected directly, this influence can stimulate your ambitions and make you want to get ahead at any cost. Positively, this gives you the ability to work incredibly hard for long hours to achieve your objectives. In fact, if you are not careful, you can work so hard that you become physically exhausted, leaving yourself open to illnesses and physical breakdown. You hardly feel fatigue and weariness until it is too late. Use your tremendous energy, but be sure not to overdo it!

A much more dangerous possibility, however, is that you might work toward your personal ends - success, power, fame or whatever - without any regard for those around you. You may pay no attention to people who disagree with you, whether they oppose you outright or whether they think you are wrong and are trying to set you right. You will lose the benefit of potentially good advice from those who would help you, and you will win the undying hatred of your opponents. Enemies you make at this time will eventually have the power to damage you, even if they don't have it now.

There is some danger of accidents under this influence, almost always because of frustrated energy within you. Obviously the solution is to express any anger and resentment that you feel and communicate with the people who are important to you about your feelings. Also avoid any situation in which you are exposed to unnecessary risks, for here again the energy may come out in some undesirable way.

The Disappearing iTunes|v0001

I bought this the other day on the ITMS, for $9.90.
Twenty-nine smoking tracks, led by HYMNE, over the course of three and one-half hours.

Deciding to gift someone who deserves a punch in the mouth instead, I learned it wasn't available in the US.

Now it's off the USA|ITMS.

Nice rework of the cover art though if I do say so myself.

Dark Cloud

I don't know if I like this "imaginary" situation. Sure, capturing her from photograph to photograph would be quite the effort, and if you saw her darkroom reassembled at The Met, you'd really know what I'm talking about.

Mapplethorpe. Fuck. Ripe for the fisting. I mean picking.

Jake up for that role? Fucking IMAGINE.
Johnny Depp.

Like me thinking Queen should have re-recorded all of Jesus Christ Superstar, had Freddie lived.

John should come out of retirement, Paul Rodgers should stay home and be free, and a host of celebs (George, Robbie, Donna, Annie, Grace) should all come out and redo it.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

MQ|v004|My Staircase

With what I've seen the amputees from Iraq accomplish,
this is easier than a walk through the park.

Find the stairway, and ascend, or descend,
if you will.

If you find your staircase,
it makes blazing your trail all that much easier.

Chance favors the prepared mind, and eye.

MQ|v0003|Not all staircases...

are this obvious.
or this accessible.



Aural Stalkings v001

Note to 588

Someone here has to work very hard to close the gap.

Note to 612

There's two ways of looking at this.
90º clockwise means time is passing,
and with the right efforts, in a proactive direction
this is where you will find yourself.

Orange|Corporate Use (non-criminal)

phrase I ran across the other day:

I'd rather die on my feet, than live on my knees.
(I think that's it.)

Featured iMix|Young & Gay

37 songs, of which I think I have one-third, which will certainly drag you on the floor, or having your friends dragging you off the floor. Check this one out!

Monday, November 13, 2006

The Whetherornot Channel.

Playlist|11_13_06 [monday] lunch

– Robbie Williams


Worth the wait for Nic.


The Twelve-hundredth post.

Playlist|I Don't Know What You Want|extended version

Orange Adidas
Orange|grey knit cap Gap

I think by now I've trademarked myself.

I like how Jockohomo|datapanik trademarked himself.
Andy Towle is too dependant on the celebrity of the name.
Like Andrew Sullivan, but, don't get me started.
Is he cozy with Coop or is it me? or is it him?
Or is it politics?

SciFi 360º. Next.

Playlist|11_13_06 [a monday] Veteran's Day Wknd

Did you get what you want?
Do you know what it is? Do you care?

Is he better than me?
Was it your place or his? Who was there?

Did you think it was wrong?
Do you find that it's worse than it was?
Has it gone on too long?
Do you mind that it hurts me? Because....
You're breaking my heart

I don't know what you want but I can't give it any more
I don't know what you want but I can't give it any more
I don't know what you want but I can't give it any more
I don't know what you want but I can't give it any more

You're breaking my heart

Was it cracking the code or just filling in time?
Was that all?
So then why'd you go back to the scene off the crime?
Did he call?
Shall I take further blame or another assault on how it was?
Then we'll get to the fact that it's always my fault, just because.....

You're breaking my heart